I didn't buy a lot of LPs when I was young, mostly because I didn't have a lot of disposable income, my school took up most of my time making getting a part-time job unworkable, and there was a very short period of time between having enough money to buy an LP every couple of weeks, and being able to get into pubs, at which point having enough money to spend on beer and cigarettes overtook music.
One LP I did buy was Adam Ant's first LP: Dirk Wears White Sox, released in 1979. He was in intriguing chap was Mr Ant. While recording the album, he had a huge fallout with his band, and they all deserted him, leaving him with only the name Adam and the Ants. On the LP's credits you could see that he did almost everything himself; wrote, sang, played by Adam Ant. I think he even did all the artwork.
After that LP he got a new band and dressed up in a punk/new wave/American Indian style. His band had two drummers and that gave them a distinctive sound: the Burundi beat. They were labelled part of the New Romantic movement, but I never really bought into that.
I got to go and see them live. It was (I looked it up) at the Royal Court Theatre in Liverpool on November 9, 1980. I was seventeen.
I remember little about the gig, but I do recall how it made me feel. There were a lot of us there - maybe 1,000 or so - and we all looked the same, underfed, lanky, with tight T-shirts, mohair sweaters, leather jackets, drainpipe black jeans, Doc Martens ... To the outsider we all looked the same, but we could identify each and every group and faction with ease. Your clothes identified you; what badges or T-shirts you wore identified you, and pigeonholed you, told us who to stay away from, who you could push around.
We poured out on to the streets, dripping with sweat. Police prowled round the area, watching for signs of trouble. This is one of the greatest feelings in the world - a whole mass of us, together, young and filled with rage and excitement. It is a rush, a high from a drug you never want to come down from. We could do anything, go anywhere, be anyone. This was our music, and it brought us all together, excluding all others. Twenty was already old back then, and if you were old, we hated you on sight. We must have been a frightening mob, hundreds of teenagers roaming the streets, but if truth be told, we were all just as frightened. But it is a good fear, a fear that keeps you sharp, keeps your mind working, your legs moving, your eyes and ears constantly on the lookout for trouble.
At any club back then, this was one of the songs guaranteed to get everyone on the floor, bouncing and smashing into each other.
We are all older now. The anger has all gone, and we have mellowed into normal human beings, responsible members of society, no threat to anyone. We watch teenagers warily, knowing that any sudden moves, the wrong word, the wrong look, can enrage them and they will turn on us. Yet we yearn to be part of them again, to feel life coursing through our bodies, but we know it is useless. The damage has been already been done. We are old, and subject to the same pitiless stare of youth as we turned on those like us, so many years ago.
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